Category Archives: journey of grief

August 9th.   It’s a day that marks so much and yet as the years pass I find that it’s a day that I don’t fully know how to celebrate, morn, share, honor, or rejoice in. I feel like August 9th is a day of beautiful contradictories. Every year on this day I find myself busy […]

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Dan confessed to me the other day that whenever he checks on the kids at night or in the morning his hand is fearing touching the cold skin of a lifeless child. The blood rushed to my arms almost impulsively because I knew exactly what he was talking about. After you know what it is […]

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I heard the screen door slam behind me as I ran out to the front yard and gasped for air. I breathed in deep gulps of oxygen as if I had been holding my breath for hours. Once my lungs were filled they emptied back out in the form of sobs. I cried like I […]

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My dearest April, I didn't know what to expect when you called me in tears yesterday. I kept thinking back to the other times you called me crying. Most of the times it involved you being really hurt by someone and also in regret to how you reacted to that person. In fact your tears […]

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I know it's been forever it seems. But life is blurring by at record speed and I just haven't had time to sit and ponder. But it's really early and I can't sleep so I will blog.  Ever since a friend of mine found out she lost a much hoped for pregnancy, I've been an […]

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Thanks for all the feedback I've been getting from these posts. It's hard to know sometimes what to say and to say it in such a way that's encouraging and grateful but yet also in a way that truthfully conveys what does and doesn't help best during a time of sorrow and change. And this […]

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I must admit that this journey has tested a lot of my friendships. It's not a testing I want to be there and it's something that honestly involves a lot of compassion and mercy on my friends part and involves patience and understanding on mine.  Because often what we want friends to give us is […]

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ways you can spiritually help a friend who is grieving the loss of a baby:  just pray for them. you don’t even have to tell them you are… they will feel the power of effectual prayers impacting their lives. trust me. Or when you do tell them you are praying for them tell them what […]

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Goodness, how can time just go by like that. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while. I know my last post was pretty sad, and I still am sad and cry often. Crying I'm convinced is so healthy during this time. When I don't have times of outward tears I can tell my body […]

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